Patricia Ella

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  Washed By Fire

  $16.49

  Washed by Fire is the third part of a 4-part bibliotherapy series. It follows Prelude to Holy Ghost Fire, and In the Fire. It is a true story of this Christian woman’s struggle to overcome her past through the blood of the lamb of Jesus Christ, to stand forgiven by Him and to worship the LORD Jesus Christ alone. After being deluded into thinking that she had to serve the god of Molech through abortion as a newborn church member in her second marriage, she found herself in the grip of Satan. She had to fight with all her might to stop serving the god of Baal Peor (pornography and domestic violence). The God of the Bible, the LORD Jesus Christ, seemed so far away. She could proclaim Him to others, but struggled to walk with Him herself. Not knowing the God of the scriptures, for years she served religious people who claimed to be Christians. When the blinders fell off her eyes and she “woke up,” she found that Jesus Christ really did love her, that Jesus Christ really did accept her back to the fold. She embraced her healing journey. Stopping to serve the god of experience and feelings and those who manipulated her was a fight. Satan doesn’t let go of his prizes easily. The losses in this life of hers have been tremendous. But she has found Christ. It is a story of hope, faith and salvation. Since the writing of this book, her beloved cat, Queen Esther Ebbie Puff Tail has passed away from cancer. Obadiah remains with her. Patricia has begun the Interphase One diet by Doug Kaufman, which is a no grains, sugar or caffeine diet as part of her healing journey. She continues to let the Lord lead her.

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  Prelude To Holy Ghost Fire

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  This book is part of my healing journey back to wholeness. It is my story, having left my upper middle class upbringing to live with my first boyfriend in 1967 shortly after I graduated from high school. We legally married, but my boyfriend removed the words, “till death do us part” from the ceremony. Thus, he justified full sexual exploitation of me. While he was a conscientious objector to the Vietnam War, my then husband abandoned me to a hippie commune in Berkeley, California, two months after our first son was born in1972. I have been through fire. In 2000 during my first session with a psychiatrist, he jumped from his chair and said, “See, you have depression, and you have had it most of your life.” I did not agree then, but I do now. I had no sense of it, none. As we began to work together and my story unfolded, it became clear that I had it “all”; Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), Complex PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder and/or deep emotional wounding. I didn’t seek help for 30 years. I worked full time, attempted to raise children and swept my life under the rug. No matter how bad it was for me, I just kept going until one day I couldn’t do it anymore. I began to collapse. I had to face the truth about my life. I had been treated worse than an abandoned, abused animal. I learned that you can run, but you can’t hide. If God is going to save you, He is going to do it, no matter who you are, what you have been through, where you have been, how you treat yourself and what other people say, do or think.

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